well its official. my life is a soap. the one with weird camera angles in split seconds, to emphasize the plot. i am not sure if i am to be proud of it.
every other moment when you feel that yes, life can't screw you anymore, up comes a whopper that knocks your pants off! and with the shocking twists in the plot in the soap, so seems to be my life ( yea so what if i am dramatizing a bit, i did say it is a soap! bunch a puritans).
so it all started when i was talking to my folks and my mother usually shows restrain on one particular topic whilst talking with me. she asked me about the job scene and i said its pretty lame and dont expect to look up before the start of the new quarter. as i completed that sentence, my mom uttered that she had shown my birth chart to some astrologers and they assured her that i would be hearing some good news regarding my career in the week of dec 8 - 15 2008 (irrespective of the economy). i ridiculed it but at the back of my mind, i thought if it was already written that, something sort of a fatalist line of thinking. i dismissed the idea because i knew i had no offers on hand and the one i was working with didnt seem too bright. it was on my mind nevertheless (monologue / thinking out loud here).
that said, the next morning, i hear from my manager about a possible extension. gleefully i call my mom to relate the news only to hear, i told you so ( soap intro song here) . fast forward a week later, i get the information that i wouldnt be able to get the extension because i graduated and the position only was for someone who didnt graduate ( weird camera angle and music here).
when i first heard about the extension, i went to the extent of questioning the veracity of free will or non determinism but seems like there seems to be a hint of it around.
i guess i will have to wait and see how the story unfolds for like the soap opera, you never know what turns up next.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
.... and then it happened
it was a thursday evening like no other. as the christmas break was coming closer, my roommates and i were deliberating over the details of a roadtrip to new york from la. and we had a good reason to be excited about it. it was daring and adventuresome. whilst making our way towards the gym for the daily routine ( we were still deliberating then), a glance on the person walking past us reminded me of someone i knew.
a tad unsure, but later pacing towards her, i called her name out. she stopped her walk, stood there for a split second and turned around. still a couple of feet from her, i waved at her. it was not a full wave. i stopped short half way through. and then it happened. my heart beats went from a steady beat to a panic attack. i said to myself," calm down now, she is not going to bite you". as i assured myself, i covered the ground and was in a conversation distance to her.
and so there i was, with tousled hair, shorts and a windcheater. a scene right out of a teen flick: a pavement, grass on one side, an underdog, and the chick of the flick. we conversed and conversed a little more. the steady beating of the heart resumed and i asked her if i could interest her in a cup of coffee. a few pleasantries later, we bid each good bye and parted ways.
until next time,
cheers,
kyos
a tad unsure, but later pacing towards her, i called her name out. she stopped her walk, stood there for a split second and turned around. still a couple of feet from her, i waved at her. it was not a full wave. i stopped short half way through. and then it happened. my heart beats went from a steady beat to a panic attack. i said to myself," calm down now, she is not going to bite you". as i assured myself, i covered the ground and was in a conversation distance to her.
and so there i was, with tousled hair, shorts and a windcheater. a scene right out of a teen flick: a pavement, grass on one side, an underdog, and the chick of the flick. we conversed and conversed a little more. the steady beating of the heart resumed and i asked her if i could interest her in a cup of coffee. a few pleasantries later, we bid each good bye and parted ways.
until next time,
cheers,
kyos
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
snooping
over a couple of months something struck me.
it is common knowledge that the google search results were populated based on some ranking alogirthm. hence i wondered if it is possible to poison those results such that your websites get populated first. obviously if you had some relavent content, over a period of time it will be somewhere in the top list. but i didnt have any relavent content interesting to the masses out there. (Note: BTW i am not doing something new, look up search engine poisoning, only that i didnt refer to any of the material online to do what i did).
then i reasoned, what would be the most popular search queries in google? the first thing that struck me was movies. mp3s, clips. basically any media that can be mooched for free (bunch of deadbeats!). and i did know that sites such as rapidshare , megaupload etc hosted such media. if one is adequately familiar with the naming conventions of movies, they usually are titled with divx, xvid, rmvb etc.
so here is what i did: i created a post with the following text:
rapidshare
megaupload
rmvb
divx
xvid
700mbs
thats about it. and i published it. and viola! within about a week or less i began receiving hits from people who were searching these terms. in good amounts as well! and more the number of hits, the Page Ranking algorithm gets duped. even the above text will cause numerous hits.
now if i were a virii author ( I AM NOT, SO GET OF MY BACK!), just hypothetically, that would mean that with some amount of social engineering, i could have links to text in the post pointing to some viruses and the rest of the story is all too familiar these days.
well thats about from me,
cheers,
p.s.: this was done purely with the motive of research and with no other intentions!
it is common knowledge that the google search results were populated based on some ranking alogirthm. hence i wondered if it is possible to poison those results such that your websites get populated first. obviously if you had some relavent content, over a period of time it will be somewhere in the top list. but i didnt have any relavent content interesting to the masses out there. (Note: BTW i am not doing something new, look up search engine poisoning, only that i didnt refer to any of the material online to do what i did).
then i reasoned, what would be the most popular search queries in google? the first thing that struck me was movies. mp3s, clips. basically any media that can be mooched for free (bunch of deadbeats!). and i did know that sites such as rapidshare , megaupload etc hosted such media. if one is adequately familiar with the naming conventions of movies, they usually are titled with divx, xvid, rmvb etc.
so here is what i did: i created a post with the following text:
rapidshare
megaupload
rmvb
divx
xvid
700mbs
thats about it. and i published it. and viola! within about a week or less i began receiving hits from people who were searching these terms. in good amounts as well! and more the number of hits, the Page Ranking algorithm gets duped. even the above text will cause numerous hits.
now if i were a virii author ( I AM NOT, SO GET OF MY BACK!), just hypothetically, that would mean that with some amount of social engineering, i could have links to text in the post pointing to some viruses and the rest of the story is all too familiar these days.
well thats about from me,
cheers,
p.s.: this was done purely with the motive of research and with no other intentions!
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
work work work
one thing that i realized after coming to the us or perhaps it was bound to happen eventually, is the work life balance; something which hadn't occured to me while i was in india, but then again, perhaps it was bound to happen eventually.
and then once this sank into me, i realised how important it is. and i ensure there is a healthy mix of both. with that in mind, there is a meeting at 8 PM today. I am set to go off at 540 PM. given that this happens like once in a blue moon, i still feel a bit restless. maybe because it takes me an hour to reach home and by the time i am there, the day is already over!
crap!
anyway, till i find some other thing to do ( i wish i had attention deficit disorder right about now for 3 hours).
cheers
and then once this sank into me, i realised how important it is. and i ensure there is a healthy mix of both. with that in mind, there is a meeting at 8 PM today. I am set to go off at 540 PM. given that this happens like once in a blue moon, i still feel a bit restless. maybe because it takes me an hour to reach home and by the time i am there, the day is already over!
crap!
anyway, till i find some other thing to do ( i wish i had attention deficit disorder right about now for 3 hours).
cheers
loser!
you have a laundry bag. in it there are lots of innerwear / couple of shirts / couple of jeans / couple of vests. what is the probability that you will pick the innerwear? pretty bad if you are a loser!
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
paathshala
na koi padhne wala na koi sikhne wala
apni toh paathshala masti ki paathshala
chehare ki kitaabein hain ham woh padhne aate hai
yeh surat teri meri mobile library
yaaron ki equation hain love multiplication hain
jisne dil ko jeeta hain
woh alpha hain deeta hain
talli hoke girne se samjhi hamne gravity
ishq ka practical kiya tab aayi clearity
na koi padhne wala na koi sikhne wala
naata yeh sannata hai dekho lambu shor hain
har dil mein bud bud karta h2so4 hain
na koi padhne wala na koi sikhnewala
apni toh paathshala masti ki paathshala
apni toh paathsahala masti ki paathshala
Monday, September 22, 2008
dekha hai aise bhi
Dekha hai aise bhi kisi ko aise hi
Apne bhi dil mein basaaye huye kuch iraade hain
Dil ke kisi koney mein kuch aise vaade hain
Inko liye jab hum chaley nazaare bhi humse miley
Sunday, August 10, 2008
of alcohol and inhibitions
inhibitions. one of the occasions where you experience this is while dancing. not everybody does, but quite a many do. they have this notion of being the laughing stock just because they dont know how to hit the beat.
i went to a club with other day and found people usually in pairs dancing, which was very sexually oriented. nothing wrong with that. they are only laying the foundation for the rest of the night. and so quite a lot of the moves turned out to be really crazy / simple moves that actually dont require any skill.
now one thing that can make you loose your inhibitions is alcohol. whether you like it or not, alcohol just shuts those centres in the brains off and lets you lose. this actually is the best preparation you can have before you go to dance, in case you have any inhibitions. and even if you dont, you can down a drink or two and just go hopping around the floor.
not that i was shy, i still downed a jack and coke and hurled myself at the dance floor, doing mindless stuff basically, but at that point you really dont care what you are doing as long as you are shaking your hips and hands.
so that was one of the occasions i shall remember and will continue to do that. getting high ( no, 1 drink is far to less for me to get high) and senseless jumping is way too much fun. of the other things that i like is to walk after you are REALLY high, on the roads with a group. the antics that happen can be enjoyed only when you are drunk especially when you see a cop. and since we are in a foreign land, we put our fingers on the lips and go F-1 International obedient student whenever we see a cop nearby.
so drink up and enjoy life!
i went to a club with other day and found people usually in pairs dancing, which was very sexually oriented. nothing wrong with that. they are only laying the foundation for the rest of the night. and so quite a lot of the moves turned out to be really crazy / simple moves that actually dont require any skill.
now one thing that can make you loose your inhibitions is alcohol. whether you like it or not, alcohol just shuts those centres in the brains off and lets you lose. this actually is the best preparation you can have before you go to dance, in case you have any inhibitions. and even if you dont, you can down a drink or two and just go hopping around the floor.
not that i was shy, i still downed a jack and coke and hurled myself at the dance floor, doing mindless stuff basically, but at that point you really dont care what you are doing as long as you are shaking your hips and hands.
so that was one of the occasions i shall remember and will continue to do that. getting high ( no, 1 drink is far to less for me to get high) and senseless jumping is way too much fun. of the other things that i like is to walk after you are REALLY high, on the roads with a group. the antics that happen can be enjoyed only when you are drunk especially when you see a cop. and since we are in a foreign land, we put our fingers on the lips and go F-1 International obedient student whenever we see a cop nearby.
so drink up and enjoy life!
Monday, July 28, 2008
well, i feel different today. for the record, its monday and the usual office hour and i am not groaning about the week ahead of me. and also i am writing a post as soon as i come to the office.
no motive, no purpose. just random typing of words forming a sentence. until i find out the reason ( i could live without finding it out, more or less the stars have aligned in positions to make me happy :P ) joi de vivre to ye all.
no motive, no purpose. just random typing of words forming a sentence. until i find out the reason ( i could live without finding it out, more or less the stars have aligned in positions to make me happy :P ) joi de vivre to ye all.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
for the past few days a lot of thoughts passed through my mind. arbitrary in nature, no specific cause or reason but then emotionally loaded.
and so today whilst everyone is asleep i am awake. those thoughts keeping me awake. in a conversation once with a good friend, i said that i want to think nothing. nothing at all. my! what an experience would that be.
i have actually imagined it and looks very alluring. you don't do anything. just float around in nothingness. feels very peaceful. for me it looks like a black background and wherever you go, blackness stretches even further.
listening to pink floyd at 2:30 am is a very different experience. lights out and with high hopes on the playlist, you just let your thoughts go free. with pink floyd playing their psychedelic music, the ambiance is just perfect. and with that all the random thoughts that earlier plagued me are fast disappearing leaving me alone. i guess music heals the spirit.
with that i end my post and look forward to Hey You that would soon croon.
pz
and so today whilst everyone is asleep i am awake. those thoughts keeping me awake. in a conversation once with a good friend, i said that i want to think nothing. nothing at all. my! what an experience would that be.
i have actually imagined it and looks very alluring. you don't do anything. just float around in nothingness. feels very peaceful. for me it looks like a black background and wherever you go, blackness stretches even further.
listening to pink floyd at 2:30 am is a very different experience. lights out and with high hopes on the playlist, you just let your thoughts go free. with pink floyd playing their psychedelic music, the ambiance is just perfect. and with that all the random thoughts that earlier plagued me are fast disappearing leaving me alone. i guess music heals the spirit.
with that i end my post and look forward to Hey You that would soon croon.
pz
Monday, July 14, 2008
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